Mike's Life - busyness and fear

Well, hello again world. Life is getting busy, right now i have about one month left of course. In that time i have to hand in 6 assignments, do one half hour teaching lesson, log 8 days of mountain practical, participate in the second year 5 day expidition, attend two 21sts, sit two theory tests and two practical assessments, make one hungi, find a job for the next few weeks and sort out my flatting situation for the summer and next year. Wooot!

Life is great though really :) spent the whole of last week in Murchison kayaking. (and some time attempting to kayak but instead swimming. It became frustratingly obvious to me the power of fear. As most of you know i had a rather large beating kayaking something i should not have been on earlier this year. Now rivers and runs and moves that should be easy i cannot concentrate on, do not trust myself to do and are afraid to try. I get in the river and feel like a mere shell of what i used to be. It's frustrating beyond belief to know you are physically capable of doing somethign, but your headspace is not together enough to do it. It's also an amazing insight into other peoples worlds. Beginners that are fearful i have more empathy for now.

At the same time it begs the question, how much more in life could we achieve were we not afraid of failure?